A year ago today I lost my best friend. I lost a brother. I remember the day I found out you left us like it was yesterday. I think about you all the time. I remember stories. I remember jokes. I remember all the nasty things you've done like making your butt talk to us. I talk about you everyday like you're still here and I remember you aren't and it breaks my heart. You were the one person in my life that I knew can put a smile on my face with a simple "whaddup wanker" or "you're a towel" I wish you knew how much people love and miss you. I have your shirt and sweater with me when I go to bed. It's funny. The sweater still smells like you. Your stinky smoke smell. That now I miss. Never thought I'd say I miss that stink, but I do like crazy. I remember when I would move my feet around like super fast, you'd sit on me to try and stop me from doing that. I still to it to this day and I remember that and it makes me laugh. Gosh. There is so many stories about you that I still laugh at to this day. Like, when you were singing to me and said you were "serenading" me and I go "I'm not meat! You can't do that to me!" You called me a dumb ass and explained to me the difference between serenading and marinading. Or when you would walk by ANY type of glass and check out not only your face, but your ass too. About the last few weeks of you being here, we were at Lyndsie's baby shower and I had a gift for you, so I gave it to Jan. You were so excited for this gift. I gave you two boxes of sour patch kids candy and two packs of sour patch kids gum. You texted me so happy about it "thank you so much sis!!! I love you." It's weird not getting phone calls from you of you farting or burping and hanging up. Or your random texts. The world feels so empty without you here. I miss you so much, brother. I wish you could come back so I could at least say goodbye or at least slap you in the back of the head and make you think about what's gonna happen when you're gone. I wish I could just hug you one last time and tell you how stinky you are. I miss you.. So much.. I love you, brother. I'll catch you on the flip side. Oh by the way, you're the towel. Rest in Peace, wanker. 11/23/1987~03/12/2014